1. |
Yellow Chorus
00:14
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Sang the yellow song like an empty chorus
Pierced the god-dick vision from the eye of Horus
Beneath a summer night in the breath of Taurus
They locked the keys inside her peace
And led her to the forest
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A blonde girl with soft skin
Sits on the steps above the entrance to the sixth floor
She stares at the reflection on her phone screen
And wipes the smeared mascara
Away from the corner of her eyes
Caused by whatever unfortunate event transpired minutes before
They have still yet to fix the water fountain
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3. |
Saraceno
00:25
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A silent darkness stares back at me
With only two weeks remaining in a room for myself
I reflect back upon my passivity
Focusing on my own self-betterment has been the theme of the year
But the end goal seems almost unattainable
Now a lovely rose confronts me
And envelopes my waking thoughts
With her wide, beaming smile
But I refuse to let her petals droop
At the thought of what I'm capable of
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4. |
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A boulevard in constant flux
Mr. Vogelman's name flashes across the East Whittier Middle School marquee
Congratulations
For what, I'd love to know
The man whose demeanor stood as a testament that words could be cool
And habitually played the Twilight Show when he didn't feel like teaching
A thankless job
But at least familiarity still exists
The car lots evaporated and now serve as bland storefronts for chain coffee, sandwiches, and home goods
The old folks home breathes sighs next to smiles from the yogurt shop
The Party City is never coming back
My youth withers away
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5. |
Sidestep
00:15
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I lost connectivity
Judgement lapse
Plug me in
Summer fevers
And mixed emotions
Led me to lose who I thought embodied my future happiness
A cold shoulder
I'll no longer get to hold her
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6. |
Sethward
00:17
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The slave revolt failed
Oceans consumed landed sprawl
We watched it disappear from view
Eyes bent low in grim remorse
Left to die
At the hands of other men
Mother Nature betrayed us
But did enough to leave us hope
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7. |
Only Ghosts Remain
00:19
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Elderly man lays on his death bed
Saying goodbye for the last time
A still silence
Empty eyes
Empty hallways
Empty fields in the state of Jefferson
Empty terminals at the airport
Only ghosts remain
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8. |
Snowflakes
00:08
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Shed warmth
To keep it all going
Your eyes are like snowflakes
When I learn to love
They disappear
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9. |
William Lankey
00:12
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I consumed you like a piece of art
An open book of scrambled thoughts
Faulkner would have been proud
I found it much less enjoyable
But I couldn't put you down
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10. |
Shredacted
00:16
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Get home safe or get home quickly
Were the words uttered by the restaurant owner from Brooklyn
And I'm here snapchatting the girl I never fully got to sleep with
Wishing I could close the book on that chapter
But loose ends write the best stories
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11. |
Intertiatic ESP
00:19
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The smell of light rain on asphalt
Often overlooked but delicately complex
A perfect drunken karaoke rendition of The Mars Volta at the neighborhood bar
My emotions have been unwillingly carved out from within me
But I still can't erase the way her eyes look behind dark bangs
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12. |
True Dichotomy
00:28
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The way the lamp light looks
Over the hastily-constructed cement wall
Flying down the highway
Yellow, blurry, sleepy
A perfect representation for the current state of affairs
The way your hands feel when tearing through a pomegranate
Experiencing a rare product of the Earth
Crushing, caressing
Always worth the work
Marvelling at the rubied color and tart taste
As if trying for the first time, each time
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13. |
Butter Socks II
00:18
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Licking drops from the dripping clock
Puddles form around woollen butter socks
I knock back dead drinks to get away
Pornographic priests run out of faded time to pray
The stymied air became my favorite color
And returned to frosted form as the hopeless lover
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14. |
Driving From Rosemead
00:32
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Driving from Rosemead to Rowland
Passing signs in Spanish and Mandarin
This is the America I like to behold
Remembering being terrified as a kid of going down the hill on Colima
The grade and speed too irrational to be safe
The dream you had recently of it turning into the descent to Rock Bottom
The palm-tree'd estates
Corner homes on busy avenues in the unincorporated side of town
A gentle Los Angeles summer breeze
I wish to read Henry Dumas
But you've yet to give him back
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15. |
Season's Bleatings
00:18
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Intangible unbecoming
Awaiting the first snowfall
Seasons bleatings enunciates the goat
The quality of person
Who takes photos of other things
Versus taking photos of themselves
The outward is inward
And vice versa
Don't kid yourself, kid
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16. |
Bow To The Shaman
00:13
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Face holding viscosity cleanse
Dedicated to Troland glory
The elaborate moon emancipates expression
Derelict in grass growing techniques
Bow to the shaman
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17. |
Eden
00:21
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Your gaze alone could breathe life into the hopeless
I waver in the quake of your confidence
But remind myself that there's a reason you still come around
Skin as flawless as a temple meadow
A tongue that's quick on the draw
Preferring to fight battles with whimsy and charm
I wish to shed my skin and learn of you
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18. |
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Keep the morning light quiet
Writing in harmonious symphony
Esoteric like the subjective
Quest we sent our souls on
The day we reincarnated
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19. |
Nature: I Remain Aware
00:28
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Suburban street signs wipe the sleep from their eyes
The frost on the grass blinks back
As the river babbles out breaths of fog
The sun shyly shows shades of pink
To guide the geese on their southern commute
Like a sentried father
Standing watch in the living room
The mountains gaze wide awake
Ever-present over their dominion
Crisp winter air grabs focus
I remain aware
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20. |
Unlocked Purpose
00:19
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Escaped with the wit of a clerical eye
The delayed intentions were met with confusion
As if the essence of life wasn't bound in attempts at creation
Unlocked purpose pulsed like blender blades
The noise cascading over socialized trauma
Gauzed up and absorbed
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21. |
Sovereign Nose
00:12
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Molcajetes to Brazil
Flowers being photographed by masculine dudes
A detached aesthetic
The Earth can't be monopolized
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22. |
Those Days Are Gone
00:20
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Youth
And all that it once contained
Has slowly poured out onto the kitchen counter
That you at one time couldn't see over
But those days are gone
So your eyes lock onto
Utility bills and discarded wine corks
Wishing that you could still only look up
But never down
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23. |
Eden As Forest Spirit
00:23
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I saw
You embodied her
The spirit of the forest
Hands clasped
Standing gracefully within the grasslands
Elegantly robed
Simplicity was your strength
Beauty by birth
And I admired behind closed eyes
For but a brief moment
Before the voices called me back
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24. |
Latham
00:13
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More interesting than most
But less interesting
Than those I find interesting
Constantly treading
I find it might be best
To get out of the water
Or drown
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25. |
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Girls in cosplay
Are they attractive?
Are they not?
What am I fetishizing
That I probably should not be?
Soupy must still be jazzercising
If he can continue to release quality tracks
From "Suburbia" to "Sister Cities"
All things flow with gravity
My Corolla in neutral at the top of Franklin street
Gliding down just to get gruesomely crunched by traffic
Or skip through and blow up the police station
Either or
The stray rats are here to exhume my body
Grab a fork
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26. |
Sporadic Tetherball
00:37
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While meditating, I hear the sounds of the school playground behind my house
The excited yells and sporadic clinking of the swing set or tetherball chain echo throughout my room
Larger responsibilities do not exist in their world
Whereas my daily routine involves exercising, reading, eating, and cleaning all before 2pm
When I must drive into work and pretend to be a mid-level manager for ten hours each day
Making sure to lock the door to the fourth floor patio
So that the college students don't throw themselves off onto the sidewalk below
Each night before I leave
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27. |
Meditation Clouds
00:23
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Meditation Clouds
An aging father tends to his orchard
Sunken eyes rest
Grey hair on green grass
Looking up at an apple tree
A proud owner of property that was once old ranch land
In the golden age of California
When the warm sun set perfectly each night
In the ciudad de Los Angeles
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28. |
S>>S>>T>>A>>DEAD>>MAN
00:34
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Flipped off by midnight pedestrian
As if their life wasn't inconsequent to mine
Strange though to think of the common threads that bond
A planned weekend getaway to consume the flesh of gods
The snapchat video you sent to me the night before you died
A documentary I know we both found fascinating
I wish to let my eyes mimic the clouds
But the sky is scattered
Like pavement, I am emotionless
Leeching off of Soni's vibrance
I remind myself that women are not structures meant to house men's sorrows
These burdens are my own
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29. |
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If these trees could talk, they would destroy you
They would destroy all of us
I emerged from my 'delic cocoon
Mentally unscathed
Perhaps substantively deeper
And wholesome
Yearning to wield McKenna's diction
Like a seasoned sword-swallower
Or the girl with which I've spent my recent days
Her presence is warm and vibrant
I close my eyes just to contemplate
And nearly fall asleep
She has me at ease
Yet on edge
And despite her overwhelming beauty
Jovial wit from head to toe
I still find it hard to catch feelings
But I stumble forward
My heart is a dog chained up in the backyard
Waiting to earn its freedom
Maybe someday...
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30. |
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She is beautiful in full bloom
And always
Man chanting in foreign language
Planning trips I cannot afford
My heart pangs out in love
A fleeting feeling not held since summer
Why did she cut off her hair?
Brown? Black? Beautiful.
I can't stomach to look at it again
My heart will ache
Man chanting in foreign language
International Womxn's Day
Her body, her rules
Not solely passing, but always
Forever
My feet are bricks
A result of evening athletics
Last week I slipped on ice
And whispered to the dear roots of a dead tree
Reminders of an old friend
Man chanting in foreign langauge
Grassed hills, suburban nature
Mouth agape at the symmetry of plants
Man chanting in foreign langauge
The dark heart of the forest
Overshadowed by an Angeles' sunset
Pinks, purples and happines
I could never kill
With her smile
Behind my eyes
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31. |
Please, Alex
00:20
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Doing things just to do things
Following the philosophy of Carl Allen
Aka Jim Carrey in a Warner Brothers flick
There's empathy and apathy
But neither of them best define me
Where's my Zooey Deschanel?
I'll take emotions for five hundred please, Alex
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32. |
Wishlist
00:14
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Never understood those with favorites lists
Top body parts?
Head, shoulders, knees, wrists?
And I don't care if it's still ten months 'til Christmas
There's no better time to add "stop being listless" to my wishlist
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33. |
Too Much Milo
00:37
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All my favorite people are women
I've never left a home that I haven't placed a dirty dish in
Please keep the water running
Cleanse me of the negative thoughts that simply won't stop coming
Like an action figure of Leonard Nimoy as a bath toy
Tossed around and submerged
My happiness is held back in memories of white-washed suburbs
Emotional immaturity
My parents announced their divorce at the dining table in front of me
You know, I thought I felt love once
But she's long moved on now
And I don't dare count the months
I'm gifted without purpose
An owl among pufferfish
With no understanding of what life is
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34. |
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Often foolish
But steathily calculated
Though not too wise for sand castles
I am standing still
Feet covered
In the cold water
Of the northern Trinity
In awe
At the blooming landscape
Running past
Through archaic carved canyons
Is the summer wind
Hiding the forest's secrets
From no one
The rope
Laced around my neck
Blissfully carved
By the hands of artisans
Imported with great joy
Is a soft reminder
Of the love
From friends
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35. |
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The wood floors creak in spots they never did before
Paint is chipping off the corners of the walls
The fridge is mostly empty on these type of weekdays
But my childhood bedroom offers both refuge and nostalgia
As I lightly push my tongue between your legs
And listen to your joyful sighs
Over the tranquil midnight beats of Sales
"We are not sales" they claim
But my youth has been sold out
To the pursuit of education and the required actions taken to repay that debt
I stare out at the backyard I've watched the sun kiss goodnight as far back as I can remember
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36. |
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My favorite poem was written by a gay communist
An American one
Thinking back to all the poems I read in high school
And all the ones I kept writing, exchanging
Just to have something to talk about
With the pretty girl I'd lock eyes with across the room
Poetry books purchased
Poetry books loaned out to never get back again
Drugs consumed and drug sold
With all the intersecting characters met along the way
Jeff Sessions wants us to get the death penalty
But we're all nice guys
I promise you that
One hot Los Angeles summer we came back inside the home
Radiating our collective effervescence
A term I learned in college from a Russian journalist
Who left her home and moved to the gay part of town
I'm sensing an odd pattern
We came back inside following the Bernie Sanders rally
Eyes aglow with the hope of future
The news station my mother had on provided only passing commentary
And she remarked how she wasn't a fan of his
Shocked and bewildered, my brother and I retreated to our rooms
That's when we knew we had lost her
She sold the home and moved to a whiter county
George took his life a few months later
And that rang the death toll on our youth
Visits back home slowly diminished
And we watched friendships dissolve
Noting how the community changed with all it's new buildings
Each time we came back
Today white supremacists plant bombs in major cities
And get favorable treatment on the news
Anarchists wish they could have been so lucky
Rest in peace Sacco and Vanzetti
A young unarmed black man was shot 20 times by police standing in his grandmother's yard
Blue lives don't matter
Take off your uniform
For many, a 40-hour work week doesn't pay a living wage
So we cope with whatever we can get our hands on
Housing prices increase, the oceans are not only warming but rising
White collar criminals take taxpayer-funded flights
To meetings where they discuss how best to disenfranchise the poor
Terence McKenna was right
We have gone sick
There are no contingency plans
Like vines we either wither or we climb
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I'm done writing esoteric bullshit
You write in abstract
But I don't want to do that
Hair as long as a siren's meadow
I spent my evening barking up the wrong tree
Pray for me, lonely
Or don't
Pick up a book and read it
For knowledge is passed down generationally
It is up to us to continue the trend or
Face cataclysmic endeavors
Capaciously full of tragedy and splendor
That our children will never remember
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38. |
Anahi In The Treehouse
00:21
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My beds are placed in the same corner of the room
Both here and back home
This is not coincidence
I'm back writing again
My father mimicked the actions of the specter right before I went to bed
The well is dry I said
The well was never empty
There are always bricks from which you can deconstruct
Or build
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39. |
Lomos
00:23
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There's nothing more I want to do than nothing
Set into motion
Snow on the side of the road in June
Shoegazed ambience on a drive through the Pacific Northwest
A man jumped from the bridge today
Three lanes on the highway closed
Men are too proud
He'll never experience again
And maybe he just didn't want to
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40. |
Bixby
00:19
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Annihilate the pronouns
My name is Seth Wiggins
Keep it evaporating
The goose gas glistens
Around the porch
Break south west blaring
Marinated matrimony
Oh wassup, Karen
Hung out by Bixby
Soon blanket nocturnal
Adjusted, mistrusted
Just words scribbled in journal
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41. |
Cultural Baseball
00:08
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Understanding as a pipe dream
A cultural curveball
When I was sitting on the four-seam
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42. |
Niagara Waters
00:18
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Getting high on the thought of you
What are words without actions?
Art is subjective
Your beauty is not
Niagara waters cascading in a snow storm
Bundled, hands clasped
Your company is all I could ever need
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43. |
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Filtered from insecurities
Tell me more
I enjoy your vulnerability
The little girl that grew up from within you
Has a voice
And it wavers at times
But it could be strong
It will be strong!
Like the silhouettes of perfect palm trees
Your soul commands oceans
And I get to watch
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44. |
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I've been stagnant
This is a call to arms
When I wake up, I lean into myself
Bruised confidence with every 2pm bite of morning cereal
What is this sleep schedule?
What is this summer?
Love can't be found at 4am
This route has been tried
The hole only grows deeper
This emptiness will outlast me
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45. |
Goose Gossage Lozenge
00:28
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I spent last month hand crafting artisinal lozenges
You laughed and questioned who Goose Gossage is
The three bears already had their fair share of porridge
Took the water off the kettle and put the grains back into storage
To which you could learn a thing or two
A wise man wouldn't dare to laugh at a Haitian crafting vodou
Never caring at where your time and energy were spent
Your man voted for neoliberals and still complains about barely making rent
And still you don't bat an eye
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46. |
Bracken Brae
00:13
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Overwhelmed by optimism
An unexpected invitation of glee
I leapt at love
And landed in the rose bush
When I should've kept my feet buried in the sand
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47. |
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Cold beer cans left outdoors overnight
Closed windows
The ways in which one can best organize their Spotify account
Past. Current. Genre.
Podcasts. Pinball.
Special When Lit
I watched the doc
And tonight
Was the first time this year
I let myself embrace the fall
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48. |
Kodoku No Hatsumei
01:03
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A dipping sun sets earlier in the evenings
Bringing with it the slight, subtle chill of fall
An occasional breeze floats through the corner window
Never once closed since the start of summer
The blanket goes on
Soon it will be time for covers
And a season that carries with it the true reality of life
Unlike its predecessor, a warm promise
A facade that gives way to the passage of time before winter
But for now, a blooming peace
Of shades red and yellow
Orange, black, brown
Of cold grass beneath the toes
And football games
College nostalgia
Car lights reflecting off the fog in the morning commute
Hockey practice
Blue eyes staring at a Walter Georgi painting
Sunflowers in the Garden
But it lies untended
The Victorian farmhouse in the background casts it gaze down onto what lays in the fore
Vibrant yellows cooled into drooping orange
Wild pumpkins growing on the hills of my hometown
I can remember
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